Why? Poem by lala rain

Why?
it's the one thing i can't understand,
it's the thought of hi not being,
to not see him smiling
or have him hold my hand.

and i ask myself why him what did he ever do,
i love him so much,
he is a wonderful person,
and he is my best friend too.

why threaten to take him away,
I'd be lost without him,
i would fall so damn hard,
so why not let him stay.

i lye hi now unable to sleep tonight
because i think you might be gone,
and i'm scared to wake
and find im right.

i stare at the stars and wonder what will be,
a world without your soul,
but most importantly a world
with out 'you and me'.

you hold me together so that i dont fall,
my feelings maybe selfish and cowardice,
but to say that im not scared or to act really brave.
is like to say that i don't love you at all.