Why? Poem by Ankoku Gekido

I love him with all my heart
But why do I hide from him?
I love him with all my soul
So why do I Fear him
I love him with all my being
So why do I not trust him with the knowledge of me?
Is it just my scars from the past?
Or is it new fears that I cannot recognize
I’m so confused as to what to do
I’m so confused about my emotions and thoughts
If I love him so much why cant I share my true thoughts with him?
Why do I hide my feelings from him?
Why is it so hard for me to trust?
Even when I know he wont hurt me
Even though I know he will protect me
I still hide
I still fear
I still don't trust
I do love him
I know that
I’m sure of that
So why do I still hide?