Why? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? Poem by Hadyn Rodriguez

i hide my face and my body from the world. I can still feel the pain why wont it end. I cant scream or cry it does me no good. I feel the blood go down my face and my stomach. Oh No your mad at me no please don't i beg you. Punch after punch will this ever stop. You say i have been bad and haven't done what i was suppose to. My eyes get wide with terror and scream. Then it goes quiet i look down their is your favorite knife in my stomach and you shoot me. I try to get up and fall staring into your eyes. My heart pounds and pounds and finally slows. That night my dad killed me. As i lay in my grave looking up at the sky's was i ever the perfect daughter good as an angel, or was i horrible like the devil.What did i do to deserve this, what did i do to hurt him so bad that he went from loving me to abusing me every chance he got too. Is this how my life will be from now till i grow old. Getting smacked around for all the mistakes i do and not listening when i'm supposed to. I pray and pray that this isn't real but i can't deny the truth with a lie. I went from being daddy's little girl who he loved and cherished so much that people wanted me as their child to who he hates, can't bother looking at and is disgusted with so much that he had to end my life at such short notice. God i beg and pray that you forgive me for how much i hurt my dad that he lives in agony and sooo much pain that he doesn't know how to move on or live his life. I pray that you don't take pity on him or hate him for what he's done but help him move on and don't let him ruin his life like he did me. I will be in pain forever if my dad doesn't find forgiveness for all he's done wrong in his life.The one and only thing that brings me joy and so much love is when i wake up in my coffin and i hear my dad he misses me and loves me so much and that he wishes he could take it all back for what he did to me. He puts roses on my grave and comes by everyday to see me and what he has to say i love him more and more i forgive him and will miss him terribly.....