Hadyn Rodriguez

Those vows I meant.
The love we share is for eternity. After all we been through you swore you wouldn't leave. But You've tried to hide your lies, i see it in your eyes that we'll soon be done.
Forever I'll never have i'm so sad & torn. I'll do whatever to keep you or else like in our vows Till Death Do Us Part.
Please I'm Begging you don't leave me because were meant to be together you know this in your heart I've known this forever
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I lost the only guy in the world that knows me best.
You wait a couple months you gonna see you'll never find nobody better then me.
I have to move on with my life I will be lucky if anyone misses me and put bloody red roses on my grave. I pray nobody forgets me but most of all forgives me for what I have done. My memories haunt me always that I absorb it to my dead black soul. But don't you ever forget that my feelings for you are forever.i'm so addicted to you that your my own personal bag of heroin. I will never ever be able to forgive this broken heart of mine. Kiss me one more time before we part I will dry away your tears. I'm deeply sorry
but it's time to let you go. Domination is what I want but can't
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I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
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I have so much guilt but ill stand by your side.
My heart sheds so much tears & dies a little everyday.
But ill stand by your side.
I convince myself you'll change & that ill be okay
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Scars remind me that my past was real,
like the sight of you and the scent of beer.

I’ll never hate anything more:
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Your hands all over my body made me sick your smiling and looking at me
with those eyes god those eyes. You kissing my mouth while choking me I was hoping you would just kill me already. But no of course not we haven't got
to the Fun part yet. Nothing I say will make you stop ewwwwww. I think I will be sick how your looking at me and my body. I spit on you and your smile disappears. You slap and punch me till I bleed. I lick the blood off my mouth and just stare. I won't cry I won't I won't show I'm weak I just won't. He pulls this and pulls that and starts all over. My hair gets pulled and pulled. Get off me you creep. Before I know it I see darkness and hear voices all around me. My eyes open and you throw me across the room and kick me till I scream. Why is it always the hard way with you why don't you listen to me. Now you have to suffer the consequences now. It feels like forever until the beatings stop as I lay their helplessly you blow smoke in my face And burn me with your cigarette. You know I love you more theN anything. You walk me around like a dog and cut me with your knife and lick the blood off of me. What did I do to deserve this from you please tell me I thought. Out of the blue you aim your gun at me. Screaming and screaming is all I can do. Shut up you say. I take the chain off me and stand against the wall all quite. Don't you dare leave me or I will kill you. The safety on the gun goes off and you point it at my heart. I don't know what to say or do. I dare you to take my life I have no reason to live so do it. All you do is look at me shocked and lower it. You act like everything is okay over the years until that one fatal day. You come up to me tell me I'm the only girl for you and will love me and only me always And forever. I hear the huge BANG and see you fall over. I Check your pulse till it stops I have no remorse for you. You did this to yourself I did love you you meant alot to me till you DIED. I never look back on that day wondering if I stopped you would things be different or the same. Why did you do that to me and leave like that. You may think you lost me but I lost you the day you killed yourself and DIED.
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you were my friend but most of all the sister i never had and now your gone.
these tears i shed will never go away
i want her back give her back to me, you cant have her she is mine give her back.
I will do anything to have her back i will give you me if you please give her back to me please please answer my prayers.
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what happened to the love we shared and had for one another. All those days we shared and didn't want to end oh those amazing memories. Its as if its just yesterday. But then you just went and disappeared from this earth. Its like you didn't exist at all. why did you leave me all alone and not stay with me.
mY heart is shattered into a million pieces how will i ever go on.
You left me bleeding and so heart broken that i can't stop crying.
I have shed over a million tears for you and now can't cry anymore for what has happened and been done to me.
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I love the way you look at me
The way you hold me in your arms.
Your AMAZING smile and beautiful eyes,
lets me know your never to far.
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