Why Can'T It Just Get Better As We Go Along? Poem by kayla martinez

Alone in this darkness is something I can no longer bare.
I'm leaving behind all my doubts and I don't even care.
Getting tired of everyone promising to be there for me.
They don't even care what happens to me in reality.

I've fallen in love with too many people, too many times.
People joke, saying that I might as well be committing crimes.
I don't have power over my feelings towards certain friends.
The thing I fear the most is if our friendship just ends.

One day I hope to find in my heart to forgive everyone,
Especially those who forced me to turn around and run.
This same old, boring routine will no longer exist,
Because it'll be gone and hidden behind all the mist.

Paranoid of what people might think of me afterward,
But I know what I have to do, keep moving forward.
Pain alone is something I have grown very used to.
Lately I haven't been able to be absolutely true.

This is for all the people out there who thought my life has always been perfect. Guess what, it's not. Hope you enjoyed it.