Why I Am Here? Poem by Sutol SSKP

Just standing in Terrace... With empty hand+ mind
Suddenly the chill winds coming towards me
It's make me smile without knowing reasons
Some birds r singing while flying to their Destination
That's smile still dazzling in the face
Eyes feeling something pleasure
Maybe because of this view
Just a sparkle the smiles disappear
Eyes felt disappointed
Hands r shivering, Dry throats
Every views are suddenly gone
Everything felt empty
It's happened with a reason
The question is
Y i am standing here all alone? ? ? ? ?