Why Now Poem by Jessica Beatty

Do you think I deserved it?
Were you justified in your actions?
When I lay on the floor bruised and crying
did you feel any remorse?
I made you my world and you ripped it apart
You bloodied my face and God knows it broke my heart
You loved her when you swore you were in love with me
I still loved you but I started hating me
My weakness sickens me
insanity
Every time you hurt me
Every harsh word
Every punch
Every kick
Every lonely night
Every hidden call
Every time I cried
Every slice across my arm
Permanent memories of the hurt that you have caused
Why now do you want to love me.