Why's And What's Poem by Zooey Lichty

can I force you to love me?
can I beg for you to love me?
I look at you and her and my hear breaks
it shatters and falls to the ground
and you and her just step on it
you crush it with your heels
you dig your beautiful feet into it
crushing it more

I look at you and her together and I just-
die
It hurts and pains me and then you-
Smile
And talk to me
And I am happy-
But then
I notice you and smile at her across the room
And I die
Just a little bit more
Then when I first saw you together

Why? Why did you pick her?
Why did you choose her?
Why did you love her?
What’s wrong with me?
Why didn’t you love me?
Why didn’t you choose me?
Why didn’t you pick me?