Will You Ever Read? Poem by Kevin Carney

I’m afraid to say the words…
I’m afraid to these write the words…
I know you’ll never hear or read.
I really hope you would care.
Before I come crashing down…
It’s a time I need now…
To be honest with me…
Before you go away.
I feel it’s just a matter of time…
If you want to I can save you…
Really though I wonder if you,
want to be saved, or is it just in my mind…
I’m just not sure you know how much I care.
I want to take your hand…
Walk you out of your darkness.
I’d take that chance…
If you’d only take that step.
Look at the time we’ve spent…
Where have I always been?
Have I not been there for you,
during the most dangerous times?
Did I walk the tightrope of what,
was right or wrong?
Never doubting or fearing the consequence of myself…
I had to do this; never could I walk away…
I did it all, the days of thinking of you constantly…
All in the name of you…
Maybe I should put the blame on myself…
Did I smother you in the name of misguided love?
Was I too weak to believe?
Are the lies,
that I have told finally catching up with me?
I didn’t care, it was for you…
Just to hold on to you…