Wondering Poem by helena dombrowski

Invisable to you
not seen by your eye
the more you ignor me
the more i cry

you think im your friend
but i want so much more
to hold you, laugh with you
have you to adore

everytime someone teases
and says i like you
i scoff and laugh
as if its not true

do i tell you i love you
or let our friendship stay
if i tell you the truth
i might scare you away

do i slip you a note
like the kindergardners do
check no if you dont care
or yes if its true

or do i hold out, chill
and play it cool
wait you to ask me
to the dance at school

what if you never ask
and im left all alone
crying myself to sleep
a silent moan

what if i tell you my feelings
and you laugh at me
say no for the whole entire
class to see

leaving me feeling even
worse than before
hurt pained
embarassed and sore

but if you say yes
that would make my day
the sun would come out
gray clouds go away

there are a lot of ifs
but ill never know
until i open up
let my feelings show