Words Are Meant To Be Kept... Poem by Karen Monroy

I won't make promise I know I cannot keep.
I won't promise to move on when I still cry myself to sleep.
I was afraid to get hurt, too...
Yet, I still put myself on the line for you...
I trusted you with my heart,
Telling myself it wouldn't be the same.
I convinced myself to believe that you'd be different...
Told myself I'd be okay...
Yet, I didn't notice the distance in your eyes,
That, once again, I'd be the one to fall.
Don't tell me you care when it's perfectly clear in your eyes that it was all a lie.
It's obvious that if you had, it wouldn't have been so easy for you to hold another the way you held me...
I know there's no point in holding on...
I just want to tell you that I hate you & that I wish you were dead,
But I can't...
Because I messed up by actually falling in love...
And...as crazy as it sounds...if you died, I'd die along with you.
Tell me one thing...
Wouldn't you want a second chance too?
To know someone has fallen in love with you?
Put yourself in my place...
I would've understood if all you needed was space...
If all you wanted was to slow down the pace.
I ask for ONE chance but you deny it to me...
Because another has taken the place in your heart...
Where I used to be.
Try to be me-At least for a day,
Then look at me in the eyes & tell me you don't want to stay.
Instead of doing the usual...just walking away.
Don't leave me alone because the darkness is taking over...
It's letting me know the end is here.
I'll close my eyes & let tears fall to lips once kissed.
Ignore me & I won't exist...
I'm not the kind you'll come to miss...