You And She Poem by Elsa Bear

you used to be so different.
when did i lose sight of who you are?
when did you stop being you
and start being what i always wanted you to be?

its too late now for you to make amends
its too late for us to try again.
now you're my friend and thats all you'll ever be.
She's in your life and She'll be what finally tears us apart.

i lost you so long ago, but kept you around
because i love you.
you stayed with me through it all,
no matter what i did or said, you loved me all the same.

i did it to save us, and to save you
i wanted to take it back but couldn't
because there She was, and you were smiling again.
i hurt you so many times.

but now She's here and you've finally moved on.
finally broken away from the vicious cycle we were in.
i see you smile and sometimes laugh.
i see you hold hands and sometimes kiss

and i ache.

and i wish that it was me you were holding.
and it was me that you were kissing.
and me that you were loving the way you used to.

and i can't help wishing
that you were as alone as me
so that i could tell you this
without worrying that She'd be there.