You Love Her 2 Poem by alice berndt

find myself doing it all over again.
I hold you in my arms
I call you my boyfriend, my best friend, my everything
we do all the things that a couple does
but the thing that I don't have is the thing I desire the most
your heart

I desperately try to show you that I am worthy
but in the desperation I change
I try to be the girl you want
I try to be the girl you need
but in the end the girl you want and need is her
I will never be good enough
I wont ever laugh like her
I wont talk like her
I wont dress like her or be as pretty
I wont have her heart
I try to be all of that and more
but in the end I just did it all over again
just like before
at the end of the day
I'm still that same girl trying to be someone shes not

maybe one day I'll learn
maybe one day Ill find that guy who desires my heart
maybe one day I'll find that guy who sees through my mask
maybe one day I''ll find the guy who sees ME
maybe one day.....just maybe