You Never Realised Poem by The Night Wanderer

You never realised
did you?
I wasn’t fine
I’ll never be fine
but I have to be...
okay
or we are all doomed to misery
and chaos

Do you know that I lye to you?
tell you I’m “great”
or do you not want to think about the other option?
that I am actually dying
while you over look it
just so you stay sane?

Do you know I hide my tears
and silent screams
behind closed doors
I hide my forever bleeding wounds
and aching pain
behind fake smiles and laughter
all for YOU

Have you ever thought
that I might be withering away inside
like a thirsty flower
Or falling
like a shot bird

Can’t you just open your eyes?
For me, for my sake?
Or do you not care
if I die inside?
Because I am dying,

I am trying, to tell you
but you won’t listen, will you
I don’t blame you really,
but do you really want my empty shell,
to walk around all day long,
with nothing inside

I can’t keep going on
not like this
not forever
I can’t

either
you accept me the way I am
broken, dying
or
I leave
walk out of your life
for all eternity

Can’t you face my disease in the face?
For me?
For all I’ve done for you
Don’t I deserve that much?