Your Little Girl Again Poem by Hailey Agnew

Im sorry dad i really am,
I know its all my fault.
I know im not good enough and i really wish i could be.
But everything i do i screw up,
Everything dad, even your affection and love.
I used to be your little girl,
Sitting on your knee as you bounced me.
I used to be your little girl,
With those small feet, cute smile and innocence so sweet.
Im sorry im not good enough,
Id give anything just for you to love me.
Its all i want in this world anymore,
But no matter what i say or do you just dont see.
Nothing i do is good enough and the pressure makes me f*ck up,
I go behind your back, lying, drinking and doing drugs.
The truth is i’ll do anything just to escape the pain,
Do anything to feel the rebelion,
Drowing my tears in my drink and staggering in the rain.
Id do anything for you to just f*cking accept me,
I cant believe after all my hints you still dont see,
I want to be your little girl again, daddy.
I want back my god d*mn innocence,
What happened to the days when everything made sense?
I wish i was that little girl again,
Witty and cute,
Smart and a hoot.
What happened to her?
She got lost growing up too fast.
You cant live forever under the protective wall of adolecence.
Now im on the other side, pounding on the glass.
It seems those days whent by so fast.
I want to be that little girl you loved,
The one you would never trade in or give up.
Ive failed you and im sorry,
But why’d you have to quit?
You left me alone in a fake world when you sided with that b*tch.
Now im living lies and crying all the time,
Living in this house, i just want to die.
Your here but your gone,
The man i loved has been gone so long.
I know its my faullt,
Ive f*cked up everything.
But i blame you too,
Your such a stupid selfish dink.
All you ever care about is yourself!
You never f*cking cared about how this would affect me!
You f*cking left me alone and abandoned me!
Now your just here to make my life miserable at every possible chance,
I cant take it anymore! You left me without a second glance!
You listen to her and not to me! She’s not my parent,
She knows f*cking nothing!
I swear if you ever catch me with an ax one night im going lizzy bordon!
And you know what?
Im f*cking done with you. Im so fed up.
Im sick of trying to impress you or gain your approval,
Its a fantasy and this is its removal.
Youve made your choice, you want that b*tch.
I hope that gold digger ends up dead in a ditch.
Bye dad,
I really loved you so much....
Now its all over, and im doing what you did, im giving up.