Yours Truly, Mentally Ill

Failure - that's plan to see. My mental stability is slipping away from me, and Mentally I think I'm just fine. I just have issues with ignorant humans and for some reason the people around me just target me. I should not engage with stupidity and childish arguments. For some reason certain people love my name and it musttaste really good because they can't keep it out of their mouths. I feel like a target in the middle of the field because I never was good with getting along with others that's why I always had few friends unless they were for easy animals I can relate to and get along with. I always though I had a supportive family, But informed I tore our family apart! I panic daily and so full of anxiety. When it's bedtime I dread, nights are long while my mind continuesspinning its wheels and worries never end. Why can it not be normal with that badly attitude and lays my family the way I did things I never did anything wrong and I was too hard to love.I never learned how to get along With the others. One must continue? Why do they not care? I am damaged mentally but my family and others don't understand that theydid this to me and pleading with the ones for love that hurt me the most.I tried not to be the one that stood out and all the pain was a gossip or two and feeling the pain when I pull the knife out of my heart. I'm mentally unstable and yes I agree but I love life and learned that it's not my file I'm not there mentally unstable person I'm accused of being or the bad mother and bad daughteror even sister and aunt. In reality I'm still 12 years old the little girl that was traumatized and being in the situation I was traumatized by. no one understand whyI can't remove it to this day only to holler at me to forget the past.