Rather Dead Than Cool

Depression sets in like a Cancer.
Soothe my ache with velvet Smoke.

I'm Healthy.
...

A glance across the room
eyes meet. Amongst the cast away's of her attention.
Me?
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My head spirals with confessed emotions, clarity was to harsh to me for her not so.
It grows to my Shoulders, chest, stomach, heart, to my dangling legs.
The Sun draws its final breath of the loving world.
Twilight lights up the roof estate and my eyes are drawing down.
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'Click clack' 'Click clack' my heels roll along the smooth brick.
Trees enclose myself and thoughts seem clear like air over the blue sky.
A brisk breeze catches my trilby off my head. I catch it by my side and stop.
I lean on old wooden fence looking out onto the never ending pure green hills.
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The cool breeze of clarity dances around my fading nerves
I see only things for what they are, myself included.
The damp ground feels colder by the passing of time
only one inhale and exhale left to say, to say?
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My feet shake, It seems only a scream away.
I dropp to my knees, my fingers ache and burn. My eyes shut vigorously tight. My mouth wide with a scream only the sky wouldn't feel.

My body writhes for its controlled by the sounds of emotion pouring through my blood soaked fingers. My throat feels full and as if im going to throw up my heart.
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I am happy now you are gone.
We'll live together in the twilight sun,
and all i have to do is pull my trigger.
A puff of smoke and i don't much figure.
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The thick of the glass catches the eye.
The head of foam bubbles can make ones lips dry.
Its orange radiance beams a smile across this face.
As the day is long without its sinful taste.
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