I love her to death, but its not her anymore-
She is not the girl i spent those summer days with,
...
Now is my chance to feel the pain
the pain i constantly hide behind my feeble mimicry
of happiness: a smile.
If ever a lie as great as my smile were told, it would be that there is a reason for our existence,
...
You probably can't see it,
but I never meant to hurt you
or make you toss and turn in bed.
...
Tell the truth, or tell the lie-
the decision makes me cry.
every day it causes pain,
while I lie to them in vain
...
Beauty has many forms.
For some it is a young lady,
for some it is jewelry,
but in my opinion-
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Why do I laugh everytime you try to hurt me?
well, let me ask you this:
why do you think you can?
why do you think i would let you?
...
i cant wait for the day i can say 'i do'
just the thought of you gazing at me from the altar as i walk down the isle fills me with joy.
the day i can wake up and, your face is the first i see.
to kiss you as i whisper 'good morning' in your ear.
...
i look out at the water, enjoying
my last moments.
As i walk down to the bridge,
I think of what a hectic life
...
What happens when you can no longer feel the pain?
The pain that once comforted you so immensely.
Being alone, crying in the dark, burning cutting: these
actions no longer hold the comfort they once did.
...
ill be seventeen in less than a month, and before then, clinton will be gone. i love him so much. i've recently (as in like 4months ago) stopped going to my dads. i finally after 6or so years got up the courage to write a letter to the judge that has been in my mom and dads divorce case for 11 years, i wont go into any greater detail on my personal business, but i will say i am so happy that it has worked in our favor, i can finally breathe. but from this story came my poem 'Your Love Wasn't Worth It' it was the hardest thing i ever did- to separate me and my younger sister from our dad, but we just couldnt handle it anymore. but as of now i am bringing my grades up, im in with a better crowd, and except for missing my dad, life has all around gotten better. - And dad, if you happen to stumble across this. i love you, and i cant wait to see you again. <3)
Drugs Have Made Her Change
I love her to death, but its not her anymore-
She is not the girl i spent those summer days with,
because now she'll only hang if you've got a hit.
She is not the one who will come looking for help,
because now she's the girl who causes trouble for herself.
I don't want to cry on her shoulder when something's causing me pain, because she is not my Kayla,
-drugs have made her change.