Rukiya C Poems

Internalizing thoughts and frustrations only lasts so long before you overheat and wanna burn everything to the ground. I am becoming a wildfire.
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I finally gained the courage to step out and find out what it means to love myself more than i love you
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I wish i was raised to know what love was.
That way i would know when it's really not
Love.
I wish i had friends who could be honest with me.
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I miss kissing.
I wanna be able to stare into someone's eyes while subtly smiling and touching them all over. Then I'd caress their ear till i decide to pull them closer, wrap my arms around them and give soft, passion filled kisses. I can taste them now.
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I hate that you made me feel things that I've never imagined feeling.
You made me think of every love song I've ever heard when i thought of you.
You awakened my soul and now I'm sad, lost, confused.
Why make me feel those things just to no longer be here?
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Why does it feel like the walls are closing in on me when I'm alone?
What if i never heal parts of myself needed to be open to love?
One lover after another;
No time to recover.
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Who am i becoming?
What parts of me have been left behind?
I now see this brave, bold woman who
For so long had been hiding
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Emotionally unavailable.
Yet, filled with passion.
Proceed with caution
Or better yet with
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Tomorrow's never promised,
They say.
We all know the cliche.
But what does it really mean,
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