samatha squiers

The stinging tears,
all those fears,
He left my heart
With such a start,
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As I sit here and write,
I think of the fright,
If he discovered my feelings,
If it would send him reeling,
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Constantly being expected to be dealing,
When all it really does is send me reeling.
Everyone has a bottle on the inside,
And no matter how hard I have tried,
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Feeling of love lost,
Not knowing losing it was such a cost.
No feeling roams this body,
Not even a flicker of love.
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Floating on endless clouds
Never really knowing when I am coming down
Even when I am surrounded with crowds
They couldn't even make me frown
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Gripping me like a vice,

Feeling as though you're a snake wrapping yourself all around me.
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All I wanted was for a chance to show you exactly how I feel about you,
But all you did was turn me away, like a fool.
I don't see how you could push me so far away when all I did was fight for you,
I knew you better than anyone, everything you wanted, everything you needed to hear.
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