a war of silence
you trap words
smugly holding them hostage
behind your crocodile smile
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Purpose? My purpose?
I never bothered with that question until recently.
You see, middle age has settled in my bones and in my psyche.
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I always said I’d lie to keep you
but that was a lie from me to me
So I said the words that
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I might have to break every finger in each hand
to keep from reaching out to you
i walked away but i didn't mean it
i let you go but i didn't want to
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forever is in aloneness
aloneness is forever
its in your mind
but attitude is everything
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Sometimes I trick myself into believing I can smell you
and I let the moonlight slip through my fingers
death has no stronger a hold on me than you do
but my thoughts have wings and they fly to you
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I try to keep our memory vague
on the chance that I’ll find better days.
how can something so resplendent
spoil everything that comes after?
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dementia overtakes me
in my myopic world of these four walls
all I see is my reflection
and all that keeps me company
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do you have your bottle of wine
and your box of tissues ready?
because this is the saddest
of all stories ever written...
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Draw me in that feeling
Drag me down suffocate me
I have no will left to fight
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