Stephan van Pinksteren

I'm sensitive when I write rhymes,
And with my head in the clouds.
It happens sometimes.
...

Deep down inside,
I feel evil in me.
It's so hard to deal with,
I only want to be free.
...

Taking my body was the first mistake,
Tearing It apart was the second.
Oh please depression go away,
So I can be free one day.
...

Have you ever been lost,
Totally cut off from reality
Have you ever sensed a deep dark void.
Because that’s my specialty.
...

The fear of dieing,
It is overwhelming.
Why do I keep on lying?
Is there a way to stop the crying?
...

Love isn't paradise,
Love isn't pretty.
Please be wise,
Don't do it like me.
...

There is a big void in my heart,
Empty and nothing to find.
Once it was full with love.
Filled with someone so kind.
...

Meaningless in every way,
Trying to figure it out.
The one reason for me to stay,
...

Time and time again,
I get to this place.
When there is no return,
Where I can't see her face.
...

My body is weak,
My heart is broken.
My mind messed up,
My soul unspoken.
...

Every time I look at her,
Even if it's only a picture.
My breath stops and my heart pounds.
I being wrecked by those horrible sounds.
...

I wish I could be that,
I hoped that someone could show me the way.
But I'm better of dead.
Or at least gone far and far away.
...

Following the road to emptiness,
Leaving everything behind.
Reaching out to the nothingness,
The pith black dark I'll find.
...

Grief, darkness and despair.
Try to run, try to hide,
Before it catches you there.
...

This can't happen,
It shouldn't it couldn't,
It mustn't it wouldn't.
...

Release me from a world unknown.
And take away the pain,
That I've never shown.
...

Take me to a place,
A place where it doesn't snow.
Where the sun shines brightly,
With it's magnificent glow.
...

Tell me the truth,
Clear my mind with your words,
Cleanse me with your blessings.
Let me fly like the birds.
...

The me you see,
Isn't who you thought I would be.

The many years I walked on my own,
...

Deep dark memories,
Hiding them is almost impossible,
Still to others I seem confident,
Maybe even unstoppable.
...