Steve Bergwerff

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Everything I think,
Or
Think I think,
Or
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It’s the first day after my abduction. I was taken unwillingly, but not uninitiated. I blindly step through the doorway of mind alteration with the confidence that strength would prevail.
The ego is bigger than the body.
Even when I feel that I finally am my own master, I’m never prepared for what will happen next. It will never be known, so why do I insist on finding the answer. Will I ever wait for the future to unfold at its own pace.
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Finally,
I tore down the walls,
Now it’s up to fate.
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I walked with God today, a visitation as I meditated.

We travelled the path of life. Walking in the same foot prints as I have walked since birth.
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I have come a long way.

Less confusion about my existence and what occurs within the boundaries of my sub-conscience. Many have taught me and directed me along the right path.
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Today, like any other day, but especially today, was very difficult. Not only did I have to witness the attention your beauty attracts, but you had to witness the attention I can attract.

I feel pain thinking of your thoughts and what this exposure will do. I was reassured that all was supposed to happen this way. I pray that all is going successful, and soon enough we will unite.
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That’s my devotion towards you,
but why does it prevent me from you?
Why must it be this hard?
Why can’t I face my fears?
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I have long lost the urge to write, but I still pick up the pen and prepare myself to spit out words, hoping to make sense of it all. Hoping to build to an understanding of my life and its truths, and I have.

One barrier is broken.
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Suffering made a brief visit in my life early this morning.

Instead of finding you last night I was found by another. She would not compete.
However mistakes had to be made in order for me to grow to the next realisation of truth.
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I love you and everyday that we see each other that love will grow.
Your smile, that look in your eyes, hypnotises me every time.
I think of you always.
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I love you.

I’m so in love with you.
I never new love until I met you.
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My devotion towards you exceeds possible limits. I can’t thank you enough for what is my life. I know I am suffering now, and soon I will see the rewards.

Learning as I strengthen.
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I remember crying last night.

I can’t recall the circumstances of how it came about, but I wept and knelt to the ground. Liberation came from crying and someone speaking in a soft tongue told me stop that I didn’t need to cry.
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I've never felt love so beautiful in life before.
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This is beyond some little crush,
Or high school sweat-heart.
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I am a fool, I want to be a fool.

Trusting intuition and the subconscious is starting to make more sense, then pleading with a rational mind.
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I am trying hard to forget you.

Not completely, just enough not to stray away from the path.
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I’ve never had the opportunity to speak to you in person, so I’ve decided to write you a letter.:

You are very special.
I’ve felt this way since the first time a saw you at the wall.
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The darkness is not emptiness,
For it births a new.
But what it shall be,
Is yours to choose.
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Void of all feeling
I'm lost in this light
The travels are dreary
My fear is now fright
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