I have surrounded my heart with a 1000 foot wall, a shark infested moat, and castle that can not be broken through
The outside pain disappeared.
That was not the problem
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Overwhelmed by emotions,
My mind is stuck behind a thick haze.
The only person I see is strangely different than I remember her,
New, but perfect.
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Grabbing at your arms.
Pulling at your heart.
You aren't ready to go.
With whom would you leave?
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I see a long night,
A night I won't remember.
I want a great night,
A night always to remember.
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Looking deeper and deeper,
And eventually I find the big dipper.
However, as I try harder,
I realize I can see no farther.
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The world all around,
As bleak as can be.
Nowhere to turn,
Nor anything left for ye.
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As I walk around what I call my place
I see a world created,
Disregarding time and space.
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My stomach churns,
My heart begins to pitter-patt,
My throat swells, leaving me gasping for air...
Then,
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Where am I going?
Who is with me?
Will they travel alongside me?
Or, will they keep distant?
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Where to go?
Canada, another state, anywhere.
Do I really want to leave?
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When the present is the future,
Your mind goes wily.
Your emotions are plagued by hysteria.
Your dreams are in front of you.
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Fishing in a lake full of rainbow trout,
All that I can catch is the one and only catfish,
After throwing it back with different bait several times,
I devise a plan,
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My Fortress
I have surrounded my heart with a 1000 foot wall, a shark infested moat, and castle that can not be broken through
The outside pain disappeared.
That was not the problem
My fortress was good for one thing,
Trapping myself with the one thing that has hurt me so bad,
My own heart