All this agony I fetched amongst myself
No fingers to situate for my poor health
My gashes a commodity so slight
The man who belabored promised “I won’t bite”
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We both refused to acknowledge every wrong.
You wore me and I maintained strong.
I'm so used to it, it didn't hurt to say.
It never turned out any other way.
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The day's devour themselves passing the time by sleeping
Every day the Graeae come for a reaping
Puffing on tree to obliterate the past
Alcohol and red-bull imbibed fast
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The physical embodiment of being entrapped inside the trenches of the four walls became a regular
Adult 'parent' figures turn into mentally insane driven creatures
Rebellion turned into a mental must
Sneaking out of windows and lying over the phone
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The pain creeps over your soul and embeds into your crevices
The heart aches and sobs because carrying that pain around changes a person
It takes the enjoyment out of life making simple tasks so difficult to do
The little things stab you in the chest
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I was born and raised in Michigan; Madison Heights to be exact. I come from a family who never had much. We still have to work hard until this day to receive what we need. I lived in a small one-bedroom apartment with both parents and a younger brother. We eventually moved up to Sterling Heights when I entered 3rd grade. I finally had my own bedroom and a backyard. I started writing for fun at first at the age of 11. Realizing even at 11 the world was no longer a place of safety and comfort. I released all my emotion into my works. I hope to one day be recognized.)
Torment
All this agony I fetched amongst myself
No fingers to situate for my poor health
My gashes a commodity so slight
The man who belabored promised “I won’t bite”
Love befell all that I sought
My parents’ adoration was never a thought
I had only an oblivion in order to be beat
I always regarded myself to never reach any feet
I smoked until I commemorated nothing
The food I devoured until I perceived disgusting
Cigarette smoke engulfed my throat
My lungs I dearly endeavored to demote
It hightailed from one to two
The packs I shifted so quickly through
Quickening my death
Anteriorly to my last breath
The morning where it all changed
The dawn in which he arranged
I beamed into his beguiling honey-brown gaze
Beforehand I assumed it was another phase
The hope advanced as the season did
Thoughts of severing my wrists slid
I gave a glisten of hope, a sign
All he wanted to acknowledge was that he was mine
He was and I acquired full advantage
Everything we created I evoked damage
I was optimistic and miserable all at once
We conversed but his brain tried refusing full allowance
It teared him to hear I loved and cared
He believed nothing to beheld there
I lay wakeful throat battered from binding tears
Wishing I only seized my life following all the years
Only 8 and I apprehended god would not permit me into heaven
My optimism on living barely reached 11
My wrists throbbing to relapse
All he fixed was beginning to prolapse
I took his heart and all he can think is regret
His amatory potential ridden brunette
He’s all I can rely on
He looks upon me as if I was the devil's spawn
Although to him it might racket as a compliment
My brain craved to inflict self-torment
I looked to be cherished all in the wrong place
From the beginning I should have fathomed he was my ace
He gave me spark to bestow myself a chance
How could I have done that; when he looked to me it was a teary glance
Marijuana not planted into my receptors because it was no longer capered necessary
Soon my unannounced pill addiction I became unwary
Drugs no longer diverted a roll
Breaking him only pierced me a capacious hole
All the thoughts disposed back
The addictions pursued an attack
I propelled them away
Preceding forward I prized to stay
I knew I loved you more because I always tip-toed and kept quiet while you rested soundly. When I slept, you bashed your feet and clashed pans while I stood awake.
You are recognized, unique and a heart of gold, the only problem is you are too kind for unworthy people that are unappreciative and undeserving. My Advice is stay close to your family, and put everyone else to a test, the test they need to prove themselves they are worthy, & loyal as you are to them. God bless.