I saw you walk out of my back door
Sat in your car feeling guilty for what you have done
I sat day and night crying myself to sleep
You cannot come back for my shoulder anymore
My dream job is slowly going down the pan
I am not perfect but doing the best I can.
I always wanted this and now I hate it
Why? because you spoiled it for me
Once you told me you would be my shoulder and brother for now
I sit here looking at your photos and watch how you have been
I am so attracted to you so much that my words fail me somehow
I am so shy all I want to tell I want to get to know all of you.
Oh this is like a fantasy that has taken right over me
That’s ok because maybe in real life it would be so different.
I would rather live in the thought you might be hold the key,
To open up my heart once again and to love once more
Goodbye is a second chance to show I can be strong
I thought of you and dreamt for you to be the one
But I know now I am only have been fooling myself
You got to laugh and see that once again I was so wrong.
It’s raining once again on a summer’s day
I look out the window and see the same thing
People walking and talking going on with their day
I hate this so lonely feeling that has grabbed hold of me
Wishing the days would bring me you
I have no clue how long one must wait
I am feeling the lines grow on my face now
Day by day living as well I as I can
I wish for you my darling; I wish I could hold you
But my life is not meant to be with you yet
Here I go again, going around the same old bend on the road
I was told to not look but the way things are going I am going to old
Here I go again same old lies and same old ways
I only ever wanted to feel wanted but always find that person who doesn’t
Long road I have travelled to find him
Been so far I don’t know where to begin.
Times I have sat alone wondering why?
How do I find my soul mate?