Anaswara Divakaran

I'm not me.
Some savage beast
From good old days
Of my own past
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I didn't know how hurt she was.
She didn't see my wounds that remained unattended.

We both were hurt.
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Though I haven't seen her for so long,
I still think of her.

There were moments she needed me, I was never there.
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I was always asked to tie up my tongue and exist as if I didn't exist.

To stifle my cries and put concealer on the Crimson marks that adorned my body.
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My colourless nothings and your rainbow smiles,
They made the perfect lock and key ever,
I thought.
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I'm all gone
I know not when.
But it happened.
It all happened.
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Tears I shed
I know not why.
I am woman of seamless strength
immovable and impenetrable.
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With the slow sunset,
The world, taken up by contagious silence,
Stares at a fragile soul.
The hour of pity smiles at a bikiny clad ghost.
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A Woman stood in the middle of a muddy road,
With her drooping shoulders, ragged clothes swinging in the monsoon wind.

Her chappal-less feet had cracks, through which her blood strained to peek at the world.
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They fit into your fingers like they were always meant to be there, Follow your feelings like no one else could,
Makes you soft, just by being there with you,
Becomes your one and only choice,
Until one day they don't write anymore...
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A woman walked in with a grin on her face.

Her friends left her on the cold ground to seek warmth on their own.
Her boyfriend's wife called her a home-wrecker and threw coffee over her.
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When I say you are pretty,
I don't mean it as a comment on how your lips twitch when you get nervous,
How you play with your fingers when I compliment you,
How your eyes reflect galaxies when I look at them,
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When I was six and said I wouldn't share my Ice cream with him,
He puckered his strawberry lips.
I bit the choco-bar and drew him into a kiss.
He didn't talk to me for a month,
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When life became too much,
When rains failed to trickle at all,
When leaves were not sun-kissed,
And when snow and autumn brought freckles to everything,
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