ash enslow

Don't you realize that words hurt me too
That I cry just like the rest of you
I'm human
and I want someone there just like you do
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Saved up in a bottle are all the tears I've cried, ever since you went away-
behind bars you now reside
making the same mistakes that we tried so hard to avoid
now leaves us in the same sorrow-
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Living day to day
gasping for a break someway
living talking telling lying
become all meshed as one
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Its been 28 years and Im ready to face
the pain i endured at an early age.

I came into the world pre mature
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I sang to you just like a dove
and wrapped you in my wings of love

now i cant lift off and take flight
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Ive always been real good at making bad decisons
im even gettin deeper at diggin the hole i live in

pushing away the poeple that want me to stay close
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Trapped between two opposites
stuck, stranded, glued
obsessed with the decision
not wanting but having to choose
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Darkness
Spin lazily
Till I see
Light.
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Nothing is going right
This year has been an endless night
I have no where to turn
I feel alone in this plight
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Father, I do not hear your words.
As in quiet space and black night I am.
Where is your discipline?
Gone non-existent.
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I'm not the same little girl
that I used to be
I'm starting to learn
what I want my life to be
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till i fade is when i stop, but still i climb shinning though im at the top, fallen so heavily in lust with you, a part of yourself has chiseld me through. im free from me, but so into you, afraid of unsticking if im allowed to choose. but choice is what kills the flame in your eyes, i wait around the clock as for you it flys by.
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She wiggled her toes in the sand
and looked around at this giant land
All she could say is I don't understand
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Don't you realize that words hurt me too
That I cry just like the rest of you
I'm human
and I want someone there just like you do
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You got a bad habit of staying out all night
Finally upon return your tired and hungry
From slangin’ beneath street lights
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I feel naughty, like a little girl
Violating a cookie jar
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After months of darkness and non stop rain
Blue sky appears with rays of sun burning off my pain
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Never been one
To be with everyone
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“Baby your perfect, your curves and all
I think I love you, I mean it doll”
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Must there be a name for an illness like this?
My head is half broken, my heart is homesick
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