Balint Nagy Poems

I'm so distracted and don't know what to do
My friends have no idea what I'm going through
I know they just preach and pretend
But the truth is, they can't understand
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Shattered dreams, endless nights,
Without you I've lost the light
But with the aim to survive
Our heartbreaking goodbye
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I'm just a clown in a circus
Who can't give you anything at all,
But if you look beneath the surface
You might find my heart so true & pure
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I've pulled myself
Back to life
Now I rise
I'm so alive
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Intoxicated, smoking cigarettes,
Walking hand in hand with someone I just met
It's beautiful, but only for tonight
'Cause when the morning comes
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For so many years I was blaming myself, thought I am the bad.
For so many years I hated myself, thought I am a cad.

Hate fueled me; I spent all of my nights sad.
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Even with your last breath you tried
To not leave us all behind
And we believed desperately
Until the very last day
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You're 81 miles away
And I just wish you were here
Oh, how I wish you were here
But you're 81 miles away
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Even though you disappeared
Sometimes I wonder
Do you think about me?
Cos I don't have any doubt
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Spent my whole life as a target for the well sharpened thorns
Negligently let the vultures tear apart my unbroken soul
Not living for this anymore, even though I've lost every war
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