Bianca Haw

I can't picture you,
without feeling my heart jump
I can't picture you,
without my breath hitching
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She told another joke, we all laughed
Another screamed as a balloon popped
Then laughter permeates the air
once more
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I look down from my position at the top of the lift.
Down into the depths of darkness,
Where many workers make their wage.
The layers of silica dust that coat the equipment
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She passes a street lamp
Which casts her shadow into a dodgy alley.
Yet the next has been shattered,
‘broken-down’ like so many others.
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“In Life, the Trials hit us hard.
We spend our lives just trying to prove ourselves,
sometimes for so long that we just pass by on all the small things.
Life is filled with challenges.
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You used to brave the world, all on your own
You used stand by me, my sturdy wall
You used to hold me as I cried, my faithful shoulder
You used to be at my side, every step of the way
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I didn't choose to shave my hair,
I lost it.
I didn't choose to be so weak that I couldn't play,
I literally couldn't move.
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I’m so scared that I will never know you
I’m terrified that the future that I dream about:
the dreams that I have, the picture in my head;
May never come true
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I stand here, in a crowded room
My friend to my left and an enemy on my right.
I'm bumped, prodded and elbowed
A member of this herd, treated like a beast.
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He approaches, with all the airs
of good social graces
Head held high and the manners
of respectful breeding.
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In a perfect world you are at my side
You show a strength of character unique to you
Your eyes shine, your voice leads me in a senseless glide
and you are never far from my reach
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I feel like a child
small, quiet and inconsequential
belittled, shushed and unnoticed.
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I watch every breath that she takes
every move that she makes, I am a mere step behind
I watch her and my heart aches,
aches for the future that could be mine.
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I don't know if I'll ever say it
Or whether or not you'll ever hear it
but just know that right now
I'll stay, forever still in love with you
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White lights
bright
burning
and blazing behind my closed eyelids
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Soaring across the sky,
a sad reminiscence of a lonely life
The eyes catch just a blur of what once was and what could be
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I want to go back to the days
when a love song was just a love song
To when 'I love you'
meant it all
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Howls through the night,
windows frozen with cold.
The wind rattles the trees,
but still she stood firm.
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Out in the ocean,
through the blue.
In the sky,
far away.
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If night was day
and day was night.

Good would be bad
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