I sit here
Dreaming of the future
A bright, beautiful future
Is all I can ever dream of
...
As I sit here at the front of the bus
I think about the things I have done in my past
The good
And the bad
...
I wish I could just run away from all of this
To a place where nobody cares
...
Searching for my soul
Searching for a reason to live
Searching for the reason why I am here
Searching for who I am
...
Love is very mysterious
It makes us all curious
As to how we feel it
And why we feel it
...
I look across the room
Into the mirror
And I see nothing.
Just the wall behind me
...
She was right there beside me
I did nothing
I was so close
Yet
...
Every morning I wake up
I see this light outside my window
It energizes me
And makes me happy
...
Flyin' down Interstate 95
Lookin' for airport signs
Your eyes on my mind
Oh honey, you're all mine
...
Oh where, oh where
Did I ever go wrong?
Oh where, oh where
Did my soul go?
Oh where, oh where
Did I lose myself?
...
She's there when I need a shoulder
She's there when I need a hug
She's there to laugh with me
She's there to laugh at me
...
Oh, how I wonder
What it's like
To have someone by your side
For all of your living, breathing life
...
I feel for the keys in my pocket
Click the unlock button
And open the door
I slip in the driver's seat
...
I wish I could just dream
Dream endlessly
As if there was no reality
Nothing but the dream
...
I wake up
In the corner of the room
On the floor
Curled up in a ball
...
As I arrive at the scene
I see her body
Covered by a tarp
Blood every where around it
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The Future
I sit here
Dreaming of the future
A bright, beautiful future
Is all I can ever dream of
But in reality
I face failure
Brutal, treacherous
Failure
That bright, beautiful future
Feels as though it's slipping away
Seamlessly
Like it was never even a possibility
I sit here
Analyzing everything I do
Everything I want to do
And the way I will get it
I know now
That I have to change my ways
Change my habits
If I am to ever get my dream
That beautiful dream
That wondrous, perfect future
Is all I've ever wanted
And all I will ever want