Brandon Shutter

Today I will wake up and
call you beautiful
with a smile on my face.
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Next to you watching you lay
what can I say to make you stay.
You’ve been with me through all the
ups, downs, smiles and frowns.
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I envy the man that finds sanctuary in rest,
as to me this is an impossibility.
For when I close my eyes,
the darkness exposes the truths
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Late night dreams seem unending,
I find myself lost in this pretend place.
Reality is unbending – overwhelming.
I seek solace, escape from the never ending race.
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I can’t understand why I am hurting.
I can’t understand why you are not.
I wish this feeling would just end.
I wish I could just forget.
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Staring out the window just
watching the clouds float by
a thought enters my mind
and it makes me want to cry.
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Stop looking back my friend
instead look ahead -
Look forward to the future
and let go of the past.
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I’m yearning for change like a hug needed deep,
Burdened by secrets that I shouldn't have to keep
My thoughts are confused like a pattern unknown
And for all I got there is so much I don’t know.
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Just listen to me baby, just hear me out.
You are more than a man could ever want.
Listen, baby, to these things I say.
What are the right words that would make you stay?
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You bite my lips, grab my hair,
scratch my neck, baby we're almost there.
The sleekness of my sweat on your skin
you catch your breath when I go in.
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I wake up in morning and starting thinking about you
I can’t seem to find anything better to do,
Waiting around for what may never come,
my feelings and emotions in a never ending tedium.
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I close my eyes, just to see,
Your beautiful face, smiling back at me.
I take your hand, it fits so well,
Like a glove, like a shell.
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I wake up in morning and start thinking about you
I can’t seem to find anything better to do,
Waiting around for what may never come,
My feelings and emotions in a never ending tedium.
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I clench my fist with rage, hatred at myself,
Why did I do that I ask, what brought that about.

My reflection peeks back at me from the broken mirror
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I'm scared of the day, the day I stop missing you.
I'm scared slowly day by day my mind will erase the memory of you.
I put a lot of trust in this, and you said that it was different.
You said you could try again, you said you go the distance.
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I sit here alone, just waiting by the phone,
I'm feeling so sad, so frustrated and low.
My friends tell me to just to let it go,
but they don't understand, they just don't know.
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Look at me baby
Let me see how you're feeling
You say you need to go
But you don't need to, that you know.
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Holding you close, bathing in your presence,
struggling to catch my balance - lost in a current
of passionate confusion, our lovemaking endlessly fervent.
Gasping for air like I'm taking my first breath,
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