Cez S.G.

What is this I feel?
As if nothing in my life seems real
Confusion engulfs me
Please wake me up from this reverie.
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I am grappling to mend my heartache
I am vulnerable, i am easy to break
Happiness is just impossible to feign
Somebody, please take away my pain.
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I gaze into your eyes
I see a reflection of myself staring back
What is this emotion I see
Can you also make out the same passion I feel?
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I cry in the silence of my privacy
Can't understand the turmoil and intricacies
My mind is sorting out the practicalities
But my heart refuses to see.
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Glum and resentful for the failed friendship
Thought for a while I could never recuperate
Took no notice of places we have been
As they bring memories of great pain.
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I cried in the silence of the night
Tears of pain I cannot hide
My heart constricts in anguish
Of the love lost forever, I wish.
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Wandering through the wilderness, her soul feeling restless
Not knowing where to go, not minding where the path is heading
Narrow roads unending, winding even entrancing
Trails hold a mystery, inviting and hypnotizing
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You make promises to escape from your weaknesses
Promises that most of the time make you feel helpless
What makes you feeble, what makes you so vulnerable?
Why make a vow at all, knowing it will just lead to trouble?
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It was pretty innocent
Saying hi/hello and how are you at first
Exhanging pleasantries and jokes
Nothing serious, nothing momentous.
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I put on a happy face, laughed with people and friends
I acted as if I didn't care, not minding the hurt that prevails
I looked at my phone, arguing with myself whether to call or to stall
My ego triumphs, leaving me shattered and mournful.
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How long do I have to bear this charade
That I still have the interest over our marriage
You know the zeal is long gone
You just don't want to concede that we're done.
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