Courtney Caine Poems

I try to wash away the pain with pills'
I try to make the pain go away, but still,
Everyday no matter how hard I try,
Happiness for me is hard to find,
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chocking on the tears
the pain to hard to swallow
the cries to low to be heard
the scars to deep to be seen
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the broken soul cries for help
but does anyone hear
cause if they do
why wont they help
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tell me your secrets
but i wont share mine
you gave me your word
but all i have is mine
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i need you
you are my everything
the one that makes everything bad go away
the one who makes me
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the tears come but they wont fall
leaves me wondering what wrong with me
I don't know all I want to do is cry
I would never let anyone see my tears
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come to me let me keep you safe
i will take alway all the pain
all the hurt i will be there for you
when everything goes wrong
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no one knows who i am they see a happy face someone who has no problems someone who laugh at everything why can't people see beyond the mask that is so easily broken yet so hard to break.why can't you see the girl who would do anything to make you happy so she can find a little bit of happiness.why can't you see the broken hearted little girl that needs help to come out of hiding cause she to scared to be seen for who she really is.why can't you see that she needs help.her bruised heart wont heal.The cuts on her wrist tell you something wrong but you wont help cause your scared of what might happen.Why wont anyone care for her what has she done to be hated she craws on her knees begging for someone to give her something to live for but you have forsaken her.You push her down farther then she can handle.she can't get up to scared to try again.So she gives up no longer scared of death but welcomes him into her home willing to obey her master she cuts a little to high and to solve all her problems and ready to give him her blood felled with pain and misery.She lays in the floor in a pool of her own blood no longer seeing beyond the hurt and the pain a small smile be again to form on her face.She was being released from from a world that she didn't belong in.a peace settled over her one that she had never felt before her mom and dad walk into her room to see what had become of there daughter the mother screamed and starts crying her father takes her into his are praying that he wasn't to late to save what he had forsaken he ran into the hospital screaming please help her please.they tried all they could but the forsaken girl could not be saved.At her funeral the ghost of the forsaken girl looks around and seen so many people crying and anger builds within her why could these people not cry for her when she was alive did it take her death to make them see what they had done.She looked over at her mother and father they were both crying.She had never seen her father cry before so why was he crying now that was her only though she had as she walk over to them and she hears the word that she had never heard before...............

am sorry my daughter i will miss you my little one..
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