I wish I'd known we'd wind up letting go,
I would've saved myself one more heartbreak;
Why would you think I'd like the same mistake?
I told you I despise the dance with woe:
I sit behind a shady screen,
Scouting life in a still state:
In hope to see what is unseen,
Or glimpse hope or contemplate.
I held you then I blinked, and you were gone,
I wish I've held on to you much more strong,
Perhaps I've closed my eyes for far too long;
Who would have thought some dreams could die anon? —
I daily drink or smoke myself to sleep;
I cannot stop the thoughts of you and I:
The time when we've fell way; oh, way too deep,
The time when we should not have said goodbye!
I had a dream:
I swam upstream—
The current got the best of me!
I wish that I could say you were the best;
For many months—alas—I thought you were:
I even let you drop my dear distress,
I nearly kicked away my comfort zone,
My love, it's only when I'm close to you:
I can take off this freezing mask of mine,
And let you look into my soul divine;
Aflame would lit if only others knew.
By chance it all came to happen,
Or perchance it was a twist of fate;
Plucking a flower before it doth ripen:
Able for a want to no longer wait.
At the road where slowly sets the sun,
And towards the sea it doth drown;
Darkness dwells when the day is done:
I glimpsed then there the outskirts of a town.
I will not pour my heart out, nor
Attempt to, why, exaggerate;
It's way past time to turn the page—
Or burn the book to hide the rage!