Emily Clark

a soldiers daughter...

when i was small my daddy went away, he went to a place that even the devil wont show his face.
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there is a method in my madness, an ending to what i feel, there will be no hurt, it will be a relief for all for me to go, i have been preparing all day, im a drain on my family, on my friends, i need to do this, my head tells me and i have given in
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I walk the streets to find my peace. i have never really looked around me just gone on with my busy life. now that all has crumbled i actually look for the beauty. I see an ambulance speed by the paramedic working to save a life. I see dirty children crying in the street, the mothers and fathers lying in a heap, passed out in their own oblivion. Not a care for their children, i see the pain an hunger for a life more better, the officials just stand by and watch this injustice go by. I see the filth that people live in and wonder why is it their lazy? is it their depressed? i see the children suffer with bruises for the world to see, they love their parents unconditionally, i see they mask their pain to survive in a world thats so vain, i see they try everything to be perfect for their mummies an daddies, i see starving people with just the clothes on theirs backs i see the humiliation to go begging time and time again, just down on their luck they just need a break from a world full of suffering and hate.

i see violence in the street another kicked of his feet another drunken oblivion, i see flashing lights and handcuffs, blood an tears. i see stumbling an broken glass just over another glass. i see them in the gutter off their head, you dont stop to talk or they will smack you in the head. i see another perso with life in their belly drinking tequilla to numb their pain, why drink the child is innocent? they will just grow up like their mummy an daddy.
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little one

sorry little one but i am going away, away to a place where the angels sang my name, for me to come to be at peace, i know your hurtin so bad little one, i know your heart feels as though its crumbling, im sorry but i have to leave this world,
even though you dont think i love you, but i do, i swear id give my soul just to wipe those tears from your eyes and mend your broken heart, i never knew id hurt you so much by my leaving this world forever,
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hey dad hows your day, remember we danced in my dreams last night dad?

hey dad why did u chase me in my dreams? why the angry man again?
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