Fernando Alvarez Poems

Have you seen my cuts,
Marked by the knife?
It's better than living in pain.
Better than dealing with my strife.
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Here I stand, by the ledge.
Before I jump, I say this pledge:
When I die, send me to heaven.
I've been needing this since I was eleven.
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I hate, I hate when my heart burns
Because there's so much pain.
I hate when I cry.
I hate to feel alone and see my world so dark.
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When I saw you, you were like a sparkle in my eyes
Knowing you were bigger than me I thought you couldn’t be mine
Yet time passed and my ideas towards those feelings were so unwise.
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What's with the destined need to die?
How will I solve this problem and why?
I have the desperation surrounding me.
Wanting the suicidal guy to be me.
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Insecurities flood my mind
Drowning out the cries of happiness I've found
Why?
I have what I want
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Hurt
You've hurt me to many times
You've put me through so much
I'm tired of being hurt by you
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It's a prefect family,
Mother, father, son, and daughter.
And I don't belong so why do I bother?
I can't take my life because that's a sin.
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Alone in the world,
As tears came into her eyes.
Nobody cared,
She wanted to die.
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I looked at her for the first time, and not noticing I would fall in love with her I looked away.
I now sit at home only thinking about her.
Why is it that I can't let her go?
I know realize she is never coming back, and begin to cry.
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