If forever could've...
Then a sacred vow to stay, I'll want
Perhaps towards that gold I'll run
...
A yes to a date she owes me,
Perhaps my timing always off
Busy, a cold shoulder she showers me with
An outright no would help,
...
On she that awakens my being I'd stay for,
A hope that she could reciprocate this embrace,
All that clog my mind she knows not,
A fantasy I fear and a love to make happen
...
What is purpose?
Is it a journey or a destination?
How do we know that this is it
Does it require more introspection
...
What if I told you
Everything I was afraid of,
Is happening and a way out I can't find
...
Huh
I struggle to breath,
Coming to terms with this I strive
Withdrawal my best bet
...
At my absolute worst,
He picketh me still,
He knew me when yet unformed in my mom's womb
Wrote he the days of my life in his book, -
...
Ashley, a noun she first went by,
A Christmas holiday chatting,
And assignments shared yet,
Her proper name I couldn't ask,
...
Up and down the staircase, Loads I heap,
A catch Perhaps to restore my racing thoughts,
All of it at once, then back, Self I hold not
...
Fear of letting you go, I honed
An idea and an interest, however,
Hurtful, I had, a facade just to make you,
Perhaps in the worst of your days see
...
Mama,
Tears flood my eyes writing aboutyou,
A first love, my ride or die,
Stories they tell of my existence,
...
Deep down in my head space I'm lost,
An imagination of what could be, almost a reality
A wish for it all to cease I plead not,
Perhaps it's in the oxytocin it releases on me,
...
My heart skipped a beat and in her embrace I longed for,
I envisioned what could be, holding onto memories of her,
An ideal I held high, yet disdained the reality she presented
It couldn't possibly be this,
...
What God's doing for me, unfathomable
Life I envisioned, better he's making them visions
And even more,
Grateful for how the events turned out,
...
Unproductive, and a feel of desert I harbor
To my creator, an ask I make,
Hope I hold, yet my anticipations for change abandoned
...
Since I met you,
Enough I've felt, and reason seems to elude me,
All these thoughts and feelings I can't contain,
Your face a dream I embracee in all of it,
...
If Forever Could've
If forever could've...
Then a sacred vow to stay, I'll want
Perhaps towards that gold I'll run
And when you,
wake up one day and my jokes you fancy not
A heads up I'll need for my sanity,
And If ruins I turn out to be,
How to embrace you I'll learn
Your ideal man I'll become,
And If I get attached and it aches my spring,
Teach me how to dry it out, closure I'll have,
Refill I shall have mastered, and wholly
If this's how delicate, rather sickly it makes my heart, through the tapestries of life, curse me not
Bear with my adjustable heart, I'll hold it still,
Maybe then meeting you was, and a safe haven it's outlet, this river to its source and mouth attached,
If this is happily ever after, everything with it we need, a flow steady to maintain it deserves, forever we'd even make real,
You and I
@ggeorge
Perhaps all we can do is live and make our experiences of time while we still can, embrace the present struggles, and not spend life living in our head