Sitting here in my bureau
Staring out the window
The sun is shining
But inside my heart it is raining
...
I want to be free
free like the wind
I want to be free
free like a star in the sky
...
You have treaten my soul like dirt
Six years long!
You are telling me, that you don't leave me,
...
Do you know how it is?
If nobody loves you?
If nobody cares about you?
...
No Dream
Sitting here in my bureau
Staring out the window
The sun is shining
But inside my heart it is raining
My thoughts are many miles away
Catching myself to think of knives cutting my veins
Catching myself to think cutting my veins would make me happy
Catching myself to get grip of the knife in front of me
Catching myself trying the blade at my pulse
Catching myself that this excites me
Catching myself longing for death
But then my thoughts are coming back to the here and now
I'm still sitting in my bureau
Staring out the window
Watching the shining sun
Whereas it rains out of my bright green eyes
Catching myself to notice it isn't a dream - it's the here and now..
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