jasmine boston

the cuts and scares on my arms
cant help the pain inside

this mask of a happy girl i put on every day
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Last day of the rest of my life
I wish I would have known cause i'd a kissed my momma good-bye.
I didn't tell her that I loved her or how much cared
or thank my pops for all the talks and all the wisdom he shared.
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im sorry im not the girl you want me to be
im sorry im not the emage that you seeked
im sorry you cant see me for me
im sorry i try so hard to make you happy and i forget about me
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some say we do it for attention
some say we have lost all direction
but little do they know we are just
scared of are own reflection and
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a young teen mother 4months pregnant she feels so scared
beacuse theres no one there the father left her so now shes
on welfare shes just so sad and blue people always say she
never sees things through so she just lays in her bed thinking
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i cry so many tears for you and i dont know why

you always said you loved me then why did you lie
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jack and jill went up the hill to show there dieing love
but when on top jack backed down and left poor
jill crying but when he saw poor jill crying it hurt
him deep inside so half way down he feel to the ground
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if love is meant to be this magicle thing that warm's you in ever way why is it so hard when you do find
it yeah there's happy time's but if it's love there should only be happy time's should'nt there be?
and everthing should just come together perfectly without any whole's, it should be a perfect puzzle with no messing pieace's, it should be a painting that has so smugge's, it should be PERFECT! but it's not but i think that's what make's it love beacuse you have to work at it to make it perfect beacuse if it was just all rainbow's and rose's it would'nt be that great beacuse i think to much perfect is not good it
would'nt be any thing speacle beacuse it would'nt be your love it would be just like every one else's beacuse
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im just the girl that you ignore
but soon i'll be the girl you will
miss for sure cuz now you wish
you would of said hi hello or just a wave
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i sit outside and watch the moon
try to break through the clouds
just wanting to be free
but as the clouds serround
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no need but my own
no pain but my own
no cuts but me own
no mistakes but my own
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when i first saw you i had no clue on how fast i would fall in love with you
when i looked into your eyes and i felt instent warmth
i knew you was the one my heart my soul the half that makes me whole
when im with you i never feel insecure i feel like i can take on the world
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in my dreams i hold you near and all my problems just disapper
in my dreams i am free and i can be who i want to be
with no one there to hold me back i push aside all my fears
in my dreams there is no fear a loveing touch a gentle tear
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i paint this pain on my wrist
and watch my pain drip drip and drip
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there once was a girl
as sad as can be
she was the kind of
girl you would never
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as she sleeps she flips and turns and flashes of her life play in her head all the teaseing
she goes through just for being herself and all the people that dont even know her but judge her
just by her looks all beacuse she wears dark cloths and doesnt wear the latest fashions
and all this is going through her head shes just wanting to just wake up and face the day thats ahead of her she slowly comes to and lifts her head slowly and all her problems rush back to her and she hurts
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i feel so empty on the inside i just dont know what to do
i feel so alone and nobody knows i walk this world alone
i feel like i wont last much longer in my broken world
i feel like a loser in this game we call life
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i'm tired of hiding all my pain and sorrow from everyone i love
why cant i just be myself why cant they love me for me
i'm tired of holding back all my tears when i just want to cry
i'm tired of pretending to be happy when im in so much pain
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