Jessica Trujillo

Your worthless,
Your nothing,
Your stupid,
Your ugly.
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Lost deep in devastation
All my anger turned to aggression
Slipping slowly off the edge
Losing my self confidence
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You came into my life and made see
Just how good people can be
You took my hand and caught me when i fell
You held on tight and fought through it all
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You came into my life to make it right
A dream come true was me and you
You took my pain and made it pleasure
You took my heart and made it better
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I have to fight back
But the pain cuts so deep
I have to try
But I can hardly even breathe
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Do you know how it feels
When you are cut way to deep
Or when the scars open up
and you can't stop the bleed?
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On the cold ground i lay, it's then that i feel my pain
It encloses me, surronds me
Greif and loneliness mock me with lifless memories
I cry out for help, but again no one hears
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I can't breath for this pain you've caused is killing me,
I can't speak for your last words have silenced me.
I can't stand because you took all the strength away from me,
I can't see because you've blinded me by all your lies.
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How come it doesn't matter about what i say until it's something wrong?
How come you never notice a thing i do for you unless i mess it up?
Why is it that everytime i try to help i'm just making the problem worse?
Tell me why my best is never good enough and my worst is all you see!
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Don't tell me to shut up, this time your going to listen!
Don't tell me to sit down, i'm already ten feet off the ground!
Don't tell me who to be, because i'm sick of what you think!
Don't tell me i won't make it, you have no idea what i can be!
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It's okay if you leave right now, i can fight this on my own.
It's okay if you say good-bye because i'm better off alone.
It's okay if you cannot stay, i didn't expect you to.
It's okay if this is to much, i knew it wouldn't last.
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Is it my turn now to break down and cry?
I can't always be strong for you.
Is it my turn now to hurt and show pain?
I can't always be strong for you.
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If you think you know me, then take a closer look
Do you see the great mass of scars and tears i pushed aside?
If you think you know the truth, then you should switch to my view
Is it all as easy as you seem to think?
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You think i've given up on all of life it's self
But believe me i'm just resting.
I'm building up my strength, holding it inside
Waiting for the right time to fight with all i have.
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I can feel myself falling apart, with every step that I take.
I tried to stay strong, as my heart slowly fell away.
I did my best to hold my head high, when nothing else in the world was right.
I hurt myself time and again, but still put you first instead.
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Sitting alone wondering why her life turned out this way,
Why she can't just go, and whipe the tears away.
Knowing there's no way to change,
No way to stop the pain.
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I lost control somehow, lost sight of what i saw
So i took my own life last night,
Because the games where getting old.
But if i could go back, i would change what i have done
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