Breaking dreams, stomping hearts,
Wondering how we all came to part.
Only being true to few,
Now wishing we could of knew.
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You know those moments when you wake up and you forget about everything that happened before you went into the unconscious. And for that one-second you’re so relieved that all your fears and pains are swept away, ‘it was just a dream’?
This was not one of those times. From the second I woke up this morning I knew it was never a dream, it was never going to go away, and I will never forgive myself for the pain I have caused quite possibly the three most important people in my life.
Pain and guilt ran through my veins, as I looked into the mirror at the bruises and bite marks on my body.
I looked down at my watch: 4: 16 P.M.1/1/2010. They say what you’re doing the night of the New Year will determine how you spend the rest of your year. As I thought that through, I closed my eyes and I had a short memory glimpse from the previous night:
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waves come down,
wash me clean.
throw me around,
beat out the bad.
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