Khumo Mhlanga

In outstretched hands,
Soul-salving utterances
Sunlight breaking through lips
Heart caresses
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I wanted to be her -
She was living my dream
The life you promised me...the love that was mine
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My mind
A puppy trying to catch its tail...
Circles of confusion & indecision
A second try
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If I TRY to love you
You'll only be held back from one who can
A warm pool of comfort for your needs...
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Trial
Loving you feels like -
Interrogation of my heart.
Cross-examined in the fire
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I wish I had known...
You read 'vacant'
True intentions veiled
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Christmas -
My release came...
Overwhelming peace at the prospect of a closed door.
A prayer whispered in silence,
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Blinded…
Hearing life from a distance
Silence, your teary response
Eyes wide open
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I want to hide in your heart
Swimming in the flow of your grace
Repeatedly drowning in everlasting life
Knowing no time or space
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You're great in me
Your forgiveness my treasure.

I'm found in your torn flesh -
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You defy supplication...
Repeated requests for my mind to be purged of you
Only fueling an increased yield of all things 'regal'
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And so it is...
2000 year old secret
Revealed in the bruising of skin
A brutally barbaric coronation - clothed with humiliation
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In love:
No longer the innocence of a favourite past-time

How some have perfected the 'art' of sleight of heart...
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The dawning of devastation
Bewildered stares at questions of your location
Advise my mouth on how to unleash
The primal kaleidoscope of raw post-scab removal emotion -
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Moth...flame
Passion, lust, fire...
Devoured
Old as time attraction
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What can we make of this?
This rolling & tumbling into absolute nothing...
You wrap your arms around me - awed by aesthetic pleasance
But in the morning, when her call makes its way to you
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Someone's calling your name...
Why am I answering?
Your voice inside me bursting out like a caged bird.
Lightning shattering the night sky...
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Is it too much to ask for you to pour yourself into me?
Empty your very essence...
Share your deepest thoughts with me
Embroidered silver and gold
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Like an addict
My senses driven beyond control - the mere sight of you
Re-wire me
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