19 To 90 Poem by Eman Awad

Just when i find nothing to do,
and i can't eat, study or even sleep.
All my thoughts are about you,
and pain over how we are cuts me deep.
I wished to spend my birthday,
and turn nineteen along with your smile.
And i wished to stay still all the way,
but we said goodbye in a very short while.
I wished you'd turn nineteen too,
right next to me and no one else but me.
I wished to tell you i love you too,
and make you think of me constantly.
I never had the time or the courage to,
look into your eyes and admit my love.
I never told you how much i need you,
and how your words fly me above..
I never told you, don't leave me,
i was too proud to admit this truth all along.
Just how your touch set me free,
should've made me to say and make us strong.
I wanted to turn ninety near you,
and unlike my love i'm growing older and gray.
Then i'll never fear you,
then i'll say, yes i loved you all the way.
But is it too late for that confession,
is it too late trying to die in your arms?
Just tell me or it'll be an obsession,
to haunt you trying to light up my stars.
But already my world is dark,
as reaching you is hard,
and i'm dying with my broken heart...