2010/01/17 Chemical Depression Poem by Margaret Alice

Finally sinking into the feeling of despair that
enables me to do my job, accepting nauseous
loneliness, scrutinizing endless words in a
tortuous mental stream

I would probably have been unhappy any-
where, nowhere on earth is safe against
the depression alive within me, falling
into the Black Hole

Dante’s Purgatory swallowing me whole, no
act of rebellion can save me from the pain of
sunshine fading, this is my fate, whether
self-inflicted or not

The storm in my mind abates leaving a hole
where my heart has been, saying goodbye
to everything that gave me hope, facing
criminal documents

Unending lists, meaningless, totally absurd
filling my whole universe, I have to remain
depressed in order to complete useless
routines in order to

Survive my life…