'2010/02/18 Trust Through Tears Poem by Margaret Alice

I am scared, scared of the feeling
of fear that lives in my heart, scared
of my own lack of interest in the text
on my screen, scared of the black
hole that lurks in my mind ready to
swallow my world

I make that world as big as I can, from
galaxy to supercluster to universe to
multiverse, add every lovely idea pro-
claimed by quantum physicists, add
all the insights of spiritualists, erecting
bulwarks against le néant

Yet in spite of the fifteen billion light
years size of the universe, it is still
small enough to vanish, engulfed by
inky blackness, I am left with nothing
even after amassing treasures of phi-
losophy and wisdom

There is never enough to keep me afloat
when I fall prey to doubt, desperately I
repeat the words of my spiritual guru
‘love is enough’ – I am going to trust
through the tears, that when I choose
love, love is enough

It is all that is left…