3am Paranoia Poem by Leah Ayliffe

I like you more than I should,
and that's not fair
'cause we are just two kids having fun.
I have always been easily distracted
by fairies and angels
and games of what a kiss may hold.
I like you and all that this is,
as big or as small as it may play out to be.
Maybe I like you more than what's okay,
because I'd do what you want
and I miss you often in my thoughts
though I don't care who you're sleeping next to.
That's a little fucked up
but I don't really mind
because you make sense of me
more than I could ever dream.
To have you at only a random touch,
that's more than enough
and more answers live by your side
than I think I've ever asked for in the night sky.
You know who I am, more than most,
where I don't mind this honest game
since I constantly toy with different identities anyway.
Sometimes I wonder what makes your dream girl,
I don't entertain those thoughts too long.
You can be with who you please
and I can misbehave;
I'm a hard girl to keep track of,
and sex is fair play.
Life is easy this way.
Life is good by your body
and alive inside your gorgeous mind.
Let's keep doing this thing for as long it stays pretty.
Singing karaoke at the local dive,
Not minding long car rides to heal my insanity.
You make me so happy,
I feel so free.
I never want this to go away,
I never want this to end
I know it will someday,
everyone keeps telling me of what's to become of this tale we weave.

It's 3am and my uncle plays the piano,
the only noise left in the night.
Such beautiful keys his fingers touch.
I softly drift in half dreams
of a different time
where you're lying next to mine
and the music keeps playing
though we know how soon it will end.
Long after your gone I keep hearing this song,
and it's not so happy.
But what do they know about it,
and why should I believe in what they say?

I say,
don't let me go.
Don't let me go.

Let's play.