9/6/2006 Poem by Lindsay King

we danced until the moonlight died,
oh wait, that was only in my mind
instead we sat together in the cold silence
every night and every day,
not saying anything
that needed to be said

and it's easier to detach yourself
from a hurtful situation
when you're the one
who endured the least amount of hurt
and you can say these things
that i know aren't true
deep down i know that
i used to mean everything to you
you look at the ground with tears in your eyes
i ask you, 'is it really over, this time?
are we really letting go? '
and you don't say no,
you just nod.

all these things went wrong
to make it seem like
nothing went right
we drove across the country together
we spent every waking moment with one another
the silence wasn't cold,
it was beautiful
i looked over and said i loved you;
i meant it
every time, every sacrifice,
every night you just turned away
still i loved you

it's easier to walk away
than to deal
you're making these past 7 months
seem like they never existed,
they weren't real
in my mind we ran off and got married,
like you joked that one night reno
said you could spend forever with me
only to walk away 6 months later
in my mind
i guess it seemed better
than it was

how can anything good
come without a struggle?
how can you have the bliss
without the hardship?
somewhere out there
i'd like to think
you'd see what you let go,
see that it wasn't the right thing to do
but i can't make you see the light
when you decide to kill
the spark of hope
what's left now
is the hurt and acceptance
one day you won't mean everything,
and it's neither comforting or heartbreaking