#91 (For Mother) Poem by Medusa Waves

I understand your reasons for your departure
Its as simple as the reasons for your stay
Yet you chose the first, for a hopeful change
Yes a change that choice has made
I no longer see your smile in broken daylight
No longer smell your scent when you head for bedtime
I wonder if you miss my presence as I have missed yours
And if not, than what a shame, I waste such time in you
I understand your reasons for your departure,
Such strong were these reasons, that I was not enough for you to stay
I have become a burden on your lifes' happiness
I hope your choice has made you smile
I have made me smile before, several times
Now I question if those smiles, behind them held cruel lies
I have always told you that I loved you with no doubt in me
You replied, me too-and I naively believed it.
I believed I was your prized possession,
Your first born and first joy
Now these beliefs seem vain and stupid-
I am now just any other person
Perhaps being your first born cannot bring the joy I dreamed
But maybe your first dead can bring this joy Ive weaved