A Helpless Mom Poem by Umasree Raghunath

When it's beyond me, I look upon God
With tears in my eyes and pain in the heart
All I now need is no luxury in life
But a strength to provide good for my child
Just because I could give her the best
I have said no to my most loved second child
As I wanted her to have her own dad
I have compromised to be my man's wife
So many little compromises and challenges
Yet the state of affairs do not change
I have no words to describe the pain
Than to shed the tears with no questions raised
It's all about the school I wanted her to get in
But when I now know I cannot afford it
I am ashamed and angry with myself
Is this the result of choosing to be a wife?
When I stood in the road with no home to go
I challenged to have a land of my own
Now the dream home getting in shape
I have to compromise on other dates
But thinking that it is at the cost of education
It's driving me with craze and rapid tension
As a child I had the best of things available
As a mother I don't do justice to my child
That the biggest sin for which I would repent
I will never forgive myself for this testament